
I lost to myself



I had a clock as a kid
which did not work
not even a bit
I mean
for which
time never passed
not even a tick
what a useless clock
a worthless piece of metal
you would say
but for me it was dear
with whom
I would spend
my entire day
A day would end
but for us
it would stay still
then I grew
but it stayed same
timeless and still
I do remember it
for we spent together
many a happy time
it wasn’t as useless
as everyone thought
because it had a happy chime

The sea
Tranquil and at ease
Aware of the shimmering mirage
On its restless waves
From it’s warmth
It felt the sun
Why? it wondered
And asked the the warm one
While you play among my waves
you turn me
Into a cloud
Answer me oh mighty Sun!
Why may I ask
Do I drift as a cloud in the breeze
Cover the sky
And mask your light
Turn dark and broody
As I clump into one
Why do I split then
into many and fall
Splashing on pavements and grass
just when I was
Happy in a cloud
Having my little fun
Why do I suffer
the pain
As I fall as rain
And flow over rocks
Scouring to make my own path
Always on the run
Why do I tire
get polluted
By my own doing, or of other’s sin
I feel sluggish and filthy
When I reach my end
When I am done
There in the end
I am back where I started
Starting from me
Pouring out back into me
I live this cycle over and over again
Aren’t you the one to blame,
O mighty Sun
Fiery yet calm
Sun spoke through the rays
of the pristine dawn.
I float in the dark emptiness
Throwing out light
From here, everything I can see
I burn
Holding the raging fire
In my bosom
the turmoil within
In the light and the heat
Is there for everyone to see
Oh serene one
Only you
turn into mist
At my touch
the mountains remain
The plants grow
flowers smile in glee
My fiery rays
feel balmy warm
embraced by all it touches
Some flourish, some wilt
Each one guided
By their nature, none are free
I am not to be blamed
Neither I claim any fame
It’s for them to wilt or flourish
I don’t nourish
neither punish
It is for me to just burn
You are
the cloud, rain and the river
Wistful, flowing and wet
change is your nature
Yet always
Into the sea you return
We are both
cursed and blessed
You evaporate
I burn
You are the sea
I am the sun

लोग हैं, तो रिश्ते हैं
रिश्ते हैं, तो ख़लिश भी
कोई ग़लत है
तो कोई सही भी
इस भीड़ में कहीं
एक हंसी छिपी थी
अभी अभी तो
इन आँखों में
उसकी चमक दिखी थी
चलो, उसे ढूँढते हैं
करें कब शुरुआत
ये सोचते हैं
है मौक़े बहुत
पर कौनसा मौक़ा सही है
ये जो अभी वाला मौक़ा है
उसमें क्या कमी है
हाँ, मौक़े बहुत हैं
बस वक़्त की तो कमी है

It’s going to be new year tomorrow.
In next one day,
we will move a year.
It seems like that,
but is not true.
It’s an end of a year
apparently, but it is equally untrue
And a beginning, it seems
But it is as much,
as any next day
But what, it truly is
It is an occasion
To rejoice with friends and family
To celebrate this lovely confluence
Of an end and a beginning
So I am going to go dancing
into the new year
Grateful for each day
of the last year
To have taught me a new lesson
To make me older yet wiser,
Richer, in experience
Poorer, in regrets
To get me here
So that I can reach there
Into the new day
And be the newer me


No grudge, no regrets
Lighter than feather it weighs
Empty heart flies free

Riding on the sleigh
Singing loudly
On the happy beats
of the trotting reindeers
There
comes the Santa
bringing
hope and cheer
May the gifts
be empty of things
And filled with
Happiness and Cheers
Wishing you all
A merry Christmas
And a
happy new year
कुछ बातें
जो हैं
सिर्फ़ हमारी
कुछ सच
और कुछ जो
अब सच बन गये हैं
जब भी मिलेंगे
फिर से दोहरायेंगें
साथ हँसेंगें
और जब तनहा होंगे
उन्हीं क़िस्सों को
याद कर
मुस्कुराएँगे
इन क़िस्सों से जुड़े हैं
इन्ही यादों का तो रिश्ता है
ना खून का
ना क़ानून का
पर है बहुत पक्का
और बहुत सच्चा

I looked up
the stats
And there I saw the dip
From the previous week
I wondered
what happened
how could I fall down
from my previous peak
maybe I said something
something out of taste
or a line or two
written in haste
so I read through
all my scribbles
pleasantly surprised
that it wasn’t all that waste
I liked
what I wrote
a fact
I was happy to note
I wrote
from my heart
a strategy I used
from the very start
words flowed
and made sense
reflecting what I felt
without any pretence
So I wrote
for I wanted too
I liked it
maybe you’d like it too
Unbound by stats
unhinged from the likes
there is a bliss
in just getting it right
